Choices

I decided today that I am going to be making a big change in my life. I have decided to make a CHOICE to move forward and forgive things/events that have hurt me in the past (even if they don't realize it or care). I had an 'ah-ha' moment today when I realized that I had been letting deep scars burden me down and hold me back and because of it I was becoming an bit of an angry and easily hurt person. So I choose to lighten my load, give it to God and move forward freely.

What does that mean for me? Well, I guess one thing is that I am choosing to open my jaded heart to the church again and allow myself to get not only involved but possibly attached. I know that I might get hurt, but I am willing (for the first time in a long time) to take that chance.

Second, I can choose to be easily upset, or I can choose to accept people as they are, forgive and live freely.

Finally, although I know I will still be very selective about who I allow into my personal life, if the opportunity comes along for me to be vulnerable and honest with people in my life I will try my best not to hold back. I know that there are very very few people who I trust with my feelings and because of that I think I have closed doors on relationships that could have made a big difference in my life. After evaluating who in my life helps make me a better person, I'm going to do my best to actually be a friend.

With that said, I'm excited about this new me! A few years ago I decided that my resolution for that year was to surround myself with good things. I realize now that I was so focused on the things I couldn't control, I overlooked the work I needed to do on the inside. So this year I resolve to lighten my heart and choose happiness and peace.